When I started my career in advertising, i thought, this was it, this is what I wanna do for the rest of my life. My first job, it is possibly the best job one could have, the friends were like family & the office felt like home. After completing 9 months there I decided to move on to another agency, the biggest in the industry, the real deal… I did manage to catch a short break as it was my brothers wedding, right after which, I had to join my new agency. Joining this agency had been a dream for me, this is what I wanted to do, there is where I wanted to be, I had interned here before so I thought it would be a piece of cake, i was wrong.
The downfall seemed to start right about 3 days after i joined, the first 3 days, my boss wasn’t in & i had all the time in the world to sit and watch ads, listen to music, do whatever I wanted, this was pretty short lived.
The person who was supposed to help me out, induct me, he tried to do a decent job, i tried to grasp whatever i could. But, I really was waiting for my boss to come, when she came, I felt amazing, she was awesome, still is, understanding, caring, totally cool, loved her from the first minute.
Slowly I started realizing that I was getting more and more upset with the thought of even coming to office, to top off this feeling, mom and dad left for Dubai for a month, they will be back in 2 days but, waiting for those 2 to end also seems so long, I started feeling so lonely even though my sister was really supportive, I had a good set of my girlfriends who were trying to get me through this, everyone thinks its the work pressure that’s getting to me, I won’t deny it, a little bit is but, that’s not a good enough reason for me to let go of my dream job, that too within a month, just seems wrong to let go so quickly. I have spoken to tonnes of people, people i know that really care about me, I even spoke to my boss about it, she was amazing about it.
Am I giving up? Am I in the wrong field? Am I just quitting with fear? I don’t know myself what this is, should I wait till my parents come? Should I just go ahead and quit? What do I do? I feel so hopeless, clueless. People may think what an idiot, she has no idea what she is giving up on, maybe I don’t, God has blessed me with an amazing family & an amazing set of friends, what else do I need?
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So, I am continuing this post after about a year of writing what I wrote on top. Honestly, now I’m laughing at the old me, I truly am blessed, I have an amazing family & an amazing set of friends, they’re the reason I am actually still working where I am. They supported me, guided me & helped me grow up. Today its been more than a year that I’m working at the place I put my resignation at 3 times and was denied. I couldn’t be happier. I love my job, I love the experience and I am sure now that this is what I wanna do, all my life.
I guess its true when they say that “When the going gets tough, the tough gets going!”
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